About Me

I am a homeschooling mother of 3 daughters ages 6, 4, and 1.  My 4 year old has juvenile rheumatoid arthritis in both her knees.  She has also been diagnosed with aspergers syndrome which is an autism spectrum disorder.  This somehow seems unfair to me.  One of the other girls should have to have the JRA if she has the AS.  Let's spread out the disorders a little.  My husband travels 5 days a week for most of the year with a Christian women's conference.  By the end of a 6 week run I begin to feel abiding bitterness for Christian women, despite the fact that this I would place myself in this category.  Although, I think in my mind I may still be a Christian girl.  I have general anxiety disorder, or maybe obsessive compulsive, or maybe panic disorder, or maybe hypochondria, or maybe my own hell-ish mix of all of them.  Every doctor and every therapist has a different opinion.  I am still in the closet on this mental illness thing in my real life (other than a very core group of friends and family).  Naturally, it seems prudent to share it with anyone who stumbles here accidentally...  I am currently taking lots o' meds.  This only bothers me at the doctor's office when the nurse recites them all to make sure the list is current and I wish they didn't make me sound quite so nutty.  I am awake and writing right now because going to sleep seems too scary.  Even taking my ambien seems too scary.  Chatting with my laptop with all the lights on is more my speed.  I used to be a teacher before I became a mom.  I love teaching, but I would be okay with being a mom and wife only indefinitely. My oldest daughter is in first grade.  She is homeschooling through our local Christian school, so she gets to be involved in the specials and field trips and parties.  She has already fallen in love.  The object of her affection is the cutest boy in the first grade, so I am quite proud of her taste level.  My middle daughter is doing preschool at home for now while we wait for the education services people to get their act together and get her IEP going, so that she can enter the Autism scholarship program at our local Christian school.  My littlest daughter either eats or destroys everything in her general vicinity.  They are all much much cuter and smarter than any other living child.  I have known my husband since the fourth grade. We have been good friends for the entire span of our relationship, but we didn't become romantically involved until my sophomore year of college after we had both moved away.  He is endlessly patient, hard-working, long-suffering, good at everything he attempts, and wonderful.  Blech.  No more mushiness.  My goals will be learning to: 1)group like ideas in the body of my writing and 2)end a blog gracefully.  Don't hold your breath.